I guess I have taken a rather long break from my writing responsibilities. Its 8’o clock, am still on my desk at Taipei, gazing at 101 from a distance. I apologize for my random way of putting thoughts onto paper, but there’s so much going through the mind, that I haven’t been able to absorb everything up till now.
As I change the bullet for the next paragraph, thinking where to take this post, whether I should be telling you about my recent business trip to Seoul, Taipei and HK, or should I traverse down the memory lane and pen down the change life has witnessed in a less than a years.
Random thoughts, too many questions, answer to some, follow-up questions to many. Of note, I have developed this habit of extensive reading, reading whatever I can lay my hands on, it may be friction, philosophy, drama or financial statements. Many of my prior convictions about people, things and places are being challenged.
On my flight from Seoul to Taipei, I met this old lady. Very old in age but very young in thoughts. A simple black coffee and the accompanied talk made me realize some of the truths about the life, the purpose of being born, caring for people and being cared in return. I always tried to quantify the duration of life, whether it was too short or too long. I guess, it’s a trivial quantification. Life being too short, because time just flies, but just too long, that you forget most of it by the time you get old.
Pretty recently, (about a year back though!!), I have a break-up with my girlfriend. How does it fit in here? Well, the entire years we guys were together flew like anything, however when I try to recall my day I broke –up, my last words to her, I just can’t remember. It all feels being happened so long ago. All I can manage to recall is that I have been single for quite some time now, yet somewhat afraid to mingle again, but happy being all for myself. No bed time calls, no morning alarms, no mid day follow-ups, but it all seems so fine. I guess I have become addicted to my work, my life and myself.
I have been missing out on many a things of late. I haven’t been to any social networking site for over a month, I haven’t switched on my fone for last 1 week, but I cant express how happy I am, living it this way.
Many random thoughts, answer to some, questions to many.
Thanks.
Friday, August 6, 2010
Random thoughts...deep meaning...even deeper conviction!!
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Random questions of a ravaged mind!
"Is fighting for someone's happiness so important when the person doesn't care about you?
But do you know for sure the person doesn't care about you?
How much can a mind vacillate in a single day, from one extreme to the other based on the slightest whims of someone else?
Is independency of mind a mere illusion?
Do I really not know the answers to my questions or am I blocking them out?
Are these incorrigible acts of impetousness or just guises and guiles?
If the latter, are they designed for me or against me?
Is this not the height of fairlessness, that one party has to suffer, so that the other party does not have to, though it is for no perceptible fault of the latters?
Which pain is so strange that you have no intent to harm the person who has wrought it upon you?
Didn't Richard Bach say “I want to be very close to someone I respect and admire and have somebody who feels the same way about me.” and when he did, did he take into account this queer disease?
Isn't a guilt free mind the best gift a person can have but also the most dangerous of all weapons?
Can my mind no longer distinguish between a tainting taunt and a frank greeting?
MY first true concern for myself: Are these scars healable with time or are they permanent?
Why are yesterday's questions so different from today? and more painful?
When all's over can it be anymore peaceful?
“If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were.” How true!
Do I have permission to slap myself if I dole out advice unasked to someone who doesn't even care?
Why have I demeaned myself to such an extent, that I cannot look myself square in the mirror?
Is there an instant "Delete" key for relations?
Why is truth so undervalued in this world?
Is it so difficult to distinguish between incorrigibility and innocuousness?
Is ingratitude so in vogue?
Does pursuance cease to become an art when the opposite party has neither fear nor interest?
Is thinking about not giving a damn so much more difficult than actually not giving one?
Does my self respect has no respect for itself anymore?
Would you help someone in distress who does not remember you in joy?
Is pain so peaceful or is this peace painful?"
These and more traverse my mind.
Everything would be crystal clear only if you have ever fallen prey to the strangest malady of all!
If not, keep trying!!
Monday, February 1, 2010
Perception versus Reality
How can someone's laughter bring me close to tears.
And you'll never know, because you're never there.
After what we've seen, can we close our eyes again?
Let me tell their story you won't think is true.
I have not forgotten so I'm sharing it with you.
For all the things we've known, what have we really learned?
Though I close my eyes the images remain.
Let me tell their story that now, everyone can hear.
And their story begins.
Again.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Thanks!
Thanks
For guiding me into the rigmarole of finance
For helping me understand numbers better, linguistically and figuratively!
For being the first alcohol connoisseur I've known ('ave learnt a lot, mate)
For showing me how to get what is wanted, not matter what the odds
For those extended breaks and endless rants
For sharing countless nibbles and tidbits
For boosting my morale during those lows
For shaping each day into something worthy
For teaching me a thing or two about self control
For helping me uncover cupid, turning me stupid!?
For trying out my pointless programs and scripts
For your patience, wit and frankness
For just being my friend. Period.
Be happy wherever you go buddy. Or rather to quote Richard Bach in Illusions "No, I take that back. I wish, dear lonely messiah, that you find whatever it is that you want to find"
Rarely do members of one family grow under the same roof."
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Daaru ---- Vanii!!
1. Tu to Mera bhai hai...bhai !!!
2. You know i am not drunk...
3. Gaadi mein Chalaunga...
5. Tu bura mat maann bhai...
6. Mai teri Dil Se Izzat Karta hu...
7. Abe bol daal aaj usko, aar yaa paar....
8. Aaj saali Chad nahi rahi hai kya baat hai??
9. Tu Kya samajh raha hai mujhe chad gayi hai...
10. Ye mat samajh ki peeke bol raha hu...
11. Abe yaar kahin kam to nahi padegi itnee...
12. Chhote, Ek Ek Chhota aur ho Jae...lovely waala !!!
13. Baap ko mat Sikhao…
14. Yaar magar tune mera dil tod diya...
15. Kuchh bhi hai par saala Bhai hai Apna...
16. Tu Bolna Bhai, kya chahiye...Jaan chahiye hazir hai ???
17. Abe mere ko aaj tak nahi Chadee...shart laga saala aaj tu..
18. Chal teri baat karata hoon usse, phone number de uska...
19.
20. Yaar tu samjha kar.. wo tere layak nahi hai…
21. chal bhai tu kah raha hai to tere liye chodh diya usko.. aaj se wo teri…bana issi baat par ek – ek aur peg !!!
22. Tujhe kya lagta hai chadh gayi hai... abhi ek full aur khatam kar sakta hun…
and the best one...
23. Yaar aaj uski bahut yaad aa rahi hai
And Finally...
Salla... aaj se daru band...............!!!
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Life as I see it
What is my life, but a speck of dust in this universe?
Plenty like me die every day and still many come into this world.
What is the objective of this birth?
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Questions w/o Answers ???